I know you better than you know me. I know everything you always gave up without them knowing. I know how much you’re hurting on a daily basis. I know how hard you love and how hard you fall. I know those days you felt hopeless and how all the fight in the world couldn’t fix it all. I know how you tried to hold it together for everyone’s sake and always made the outside world think you were ok. I know how the stress wore on you. I know how you felt like you lost yourself. I know how you never felt like it was ok to say no. I know that you were afraid of losing your world, of not feeling loved, and so tired of pushing through everyday while holding onto burdens that were not yours to bear. I’m here to tell you that you’ll be ok.
You, my dear, don’t have to fix it all. You don’t have to appear to hold it all together. It’s ok and quite healthy to show your feelings. It’s ok to show you are hurt. It’s ok to speak up. Girl, it’s ok to be happy with who you want to be. I’m going to tell you something that’s going to surprise you. It will blow you away. YOU are allowed to be selfish. Yes, that’s right. S-E-L-F-I-S-H. I know that’s a tough word to hear, because you’ve always tried not to. You saw selfishness as an evil but, honey, it is needed. You NEED to take care of you. If you don’t then how will you be able to care of others? Regardless of the feelings it draws from you or from those around you, it needs to happen. You need to teach your children that self-care is as important as selflessness. So, I implore you, go sign up for that race. It will make your soul come alive. Take that trip to the beach alone. It will solidify your relationship with the earth and keep you at peace. Make the appointment for the massage, pedicure or coffee with a friend. You need to relax and refresh. Do not feel guilty, darling. Do not let anyone dim your shine. You are human. You have the right to feel alive. You have the right to set your soul on fire. You have to right to be true to you. Baby girl, if you do…. oh will you SHINE.