I Refuse to Sink!

I Refuse to Sink!

The last two weeks have been big ones for me.  I’m finally starting to feel like my self again.  I’ve tried everything in my power to get myself back on track.

Win #1…

For one, I know that improvements in my medical condition have changed my attitude and level of stress greatly because… well, who wants to hear that their body is working against them?  I’ve worked hard for that not to happen so when it occurred it was like a slap in the face.  Actually, I lied.  It was a full on uppercut to the jaw.  It knocked me out beyond all recognition. It wasn’t that the things weren’t repairable.  It was that it happened even when it was trying to be prevented.  It scared me for the future since I was already looking into how my health can change as I age.

 

Win #2…

 

I am exercising daily.  I am running when I can.  I have signed up for several races to keep me motivated and I’m damn excited about them.  I gained a new running partner, my husband, and I couldn’t be prouder of him.  It’s hard doing this on my own.  I’ve done it before.  I know it can be done, but it’s great to be able to look over and know this is important in our house.   It’s important for me, him and our children.  We’ve even opened up the idea of nightly dance parties with the kids as Daddy does his thing on the treadmill.  They look forward to it.  That will forever be a #momwin.

Win #4…

I’m happy.  I’m happy. I’m happy.  That’s not to say that there aren’t good days and bad, but deep down even if I’m screaming, I can still see a beam of light.  That is what is important.

This ship is sailing.  I’m no longer bailing.

I’m turning on my tunes, lacing up my kicks and going for a run.  I’m out.

 

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